Today’s Susan’s “scan” day — which means a week from now we’ll know whether the chemo’s continuing to do its job. I stayed home from work to take care of the twins while Susan did her CT scan and then came home and crashed.
I’m an anxious ball of nerves, and I’m going to be like this ’til this time next week.
It occurs to me that there’s going to be a week like this every quarter for pretty much ever. I don’t like the thought of that.
Trying Something Different
A few weeks ago, I asked whether I ought to do the e100, Lotoja, or the 24 Hours of Grand Targhee. As many of you noticed, I was leaning heavily toward doing the 24 Hour Race.
Since then, I’ve been thinking, though. Here are the things I’ve been thinking about:
- The race is on September 15.
- Susan’s birthday is also on September 15.
- Birthdays mean nothing to me.
- Birthdays mean a lot to Susan.
- If I do this race, I’ll be gone on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday — three of the days of the “anxious week” during which we’re wondering what the results of Susan’s scan are.
Thinking about all these things, a wild thought occurred to me: what if I stayed home on my wife’s birthday and made her a cake? Possibly, even, the best cake in the world? And furthermore, what if I wrapped her presents, instead of handing them to her in the amazon.com boxes they arrived in (or at least wrapping the amazon.com boxes up)?
And last of all, what if I stuck around and took Susan out to a dinner and movie on her birthday, to take both our minds off the Big Questions we otherwise can’t seem to get out of our heads?
It’s so crazy, it just might work!