As I mentioned yesterday, I’m generally not a very angry person. Maybe this is because just about any time I work up a nice batch of righteous indignation and then express it, I find myself feeling silly about it after I’ve cooled down.
Like yesterday, for example.
Shortly after posting, I re-read what I wrote and considered taking it down. Then I decided to leave it up, because, after all, it’s how I really felt at the moment. And I think that it’s a pretty good representation of how anyone who’s ever been knocked off his bike — whether in a race or not — feels.
Which is to say, yesterday’s post may not have been my most noble moment, but it was an honest moment.
Now that I’ve cooled down a bit, here’s what I’m thinking:
- I still think Louis made a bad move. It was reckless and unnecessary, and it could have ended not just my race, but his race, and a lot of other people’s races.
- There was no need to make a reckless move in order to get ahead of me. As I stood in line at the beginning of the race, a racer from behind Rick McDonald and me asked if he could wheel his bike ahead of us to get a better start position. Of course we said yes. The racer’s name was Manuel Prada. He eventually took third, overall.
- I have done stupid things, too. I’ve done very stupid things on a bike before, causing other people to crash. I would have been humiliated if someone had caught those things on camera and published them for the world to see. Well, actually, when I do stupid stuff I write about it pretty much immediately. But there’s a difference between writing about something stupid I do and something stupid someone else does.
- I should not use my blog for revenge. I can see that if I use my blog as a place to get even, it will quickly transform from the generous community it has become into an angry, snarky place that I wouldn’t want to read. So I’m going to take 300 deep breaths before clicking Publish the next time I consider using my blog as a weapon.
- I forget to suck in my gut when I’m crashing. Thanks to Holly for getting this photo. While I don’t seek out crashes, I’m glad that I somehow manage to have people catching them on film. Here it is again. This time, just admire it for Holly’s awesome timing with the shutter.